As the energy in our little temporary household intensifies nothing calms my spirit as a walk in the woods, and just now as it appears that the autumn color display is at it's near peak, it is really a sight to behold. It speaks to my soul the constant changing of nature.
It is a helpful reminder, that although our lives right now are permeated with separation and rootlessness, this too shall pass, because just as sure as the leaves will change and fall during these coming darker months, just as surely will they return and flourish in the lighter days just on the other side.
I am feeling a little tired these days. I miss my husband and our family life, I long for a place of our own, and yet I am filled with gratitude for this time spent with my sister and her daughter. Our time together has been well spent, and many important seeds have been planted, yet now coming to the end of this two year stretch, it feels like my strength is running out, it feels like I am about to cave in just before the finish line. Of course I will find the strength needed, we always do, somehow miraculously we always have exactly what we need to move on to the next step on out journey.
On days like this I get me to the woods:). To watch my children run carefree through the fallen leaves, build dams in the creek and fairy houses on the forrest floor, the joy of it, the importance of it, it fills me and gives me strength.
I am once again reminded, it seems I need a lot of reminding lately, that though our road has had it's challenges, every step of our journey has had a purpose,
and for the ability to see this and know the truth of it in my heart, I am grateful.
Once again I look to the beauty that surrounds us, I take a deep breath in , go to that place of peace deep within, and exhale in gratitude.
~with love and gratitude~